『じんせいのどくとく』

naive

SevenSpring — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 10:31:44 +0000

great, you know ? This thing really hits me. About what ? It’s about socializing.

Frankly speaking, I am not a good at adapting with new environments and socializing, especially with brand new friends. I don’t know how to start a conversation, maybe about simple things. A lot of people say that it is a good start to make friends, but what ? It’s not doing any good. Sometimes, they’ll just leave or pretend that they don’t hear I’m talking to them. Or maybe they’ll answer, but then again, it goes silence. If they continue or reply, maybe I can talk more with them and make friends, but things never go the way you want it to be. So, to cheer myself, I always think like this, maybe it’s not the time yet. When the time comes, surely you will be friend with a lot of people.

But then, another side of my heart tells me that I am too naive. You know that life is never easy and you do it like everyone is your friend ? Wake up kid ! Life is never by your side. So, sometimes I wonder, isn’t positive thinking same with being naive ? Both trying to have the bright side of things that maybe never there. So what can I say more about making friends ? I dunno. Maybe I’ll just be silent. Because there’s no right or wrong here, it’s more about personal feeling, and I’m terribly bad in dealing with my feeling. so ? I’ll just say, no comment.

people say . . .

SevenSpring — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 08:03:19 +0000

did I waste the chances that I had been given ?

did I pretend to be the best when I’m not ?

did I crave for the impossible ?

did I dream too much ?

I guess yes

so, it’s time for a change

but still, if I have no courage

it will never do any good

maybe I’ll just sit back and be myself

even I know some people think I’m such a loser

but hell ! They don’t know a thing about me !

so what ? I don’t live for them !

let it go and pretend that there's nothing
is the best way of ignorance.

confusion

SevenSpring — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 11:31:32 +0000

hello world ! I’ve just come back to life ! haha. Yeah, long time no post, all because mid term exam. and now I think I do not have time to post.

do you now why the topic’s title is confusion ? because I’m confused ! Yeah, I do not have any topic right now, yet I know I have to post something to keep this blog ‘alive’. Oh great ! I’m stuck with my report but I still playing with my blog. How wonderful could that be ?

And now, gotta go [again], sorry for disappointing you all for the ‘unworthy’ post.

pain and pain

SevenSpring — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 13:52:00 +0000

I have been having fever since last Thursday. It really sucks ! I can’t concentrate on my studies, can’t online, can’t do what I want. And now the doctor said that I had typhus. If I don’t get better until Wed, I’ll have to go back to the doctor again. Dammit dammit dammit !

waiting in the uncertainty

SevenSpring — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 03:22:04 +0000

wew, another promise is broken >.< yeah, this post is supposed to be about my trip, but yeah, it got cancelled for some reasons. Sorry for that.

Waiting in the uncertainty. Yeah, it was a long waiting… and until now, no results had shown up yet. You know what I’m waiting for ? An email ! A confirmation email from Young Photographers Of The Year ! Gosh, I really want to join that contest, I’ve got all the things prepared. But, the confirmation email to activate my account hasn’t come ! It’s so frustrating ! I can’t concentrate on my study, even though I will have mid term exam tomorrow. Yeah, it’s all because of the confirmation email doesn’t show up. What’s more, there’s no such thing like resending confirmation email ! aarghhh ! What can I do now ?? I think I won’t be able to join the contest this year TT_TT but hopefully I can join it next year !